This past week has been one of the hardest so far
But I have learned a big lesson
I learned that this world revolves around food
I did an experiment where I would binge my self with only small things each day
Like one day I would have a cracker
And the next, a simple chip
I wanted to see what the effects would be on my body, the people around me, reactions of others, and my overall feelings about it
I found that every second of the day, all that you have on your mind is food
And when you will eat next
And if people around you can hear your stomach growling
And if anyone even realizes that you are dyeing for the sliest bit of food
Math class:
If Jonny ate ten chips and X amount of cookies that was larger then the amount of chips
Put this into an equation
Science:
I was offered a muffin
Spanish:
We are learning how to order food in Spanish
Social studies:
We are reading articles on the culture universals on the topic of basic needs
Our current one is foods and what a typical family would eat in a week.
This world revolves around food
I learned that when you take something in a daily life away,
That it becomes more noticed and wanted.
This pressure we are put on us in this world to be perfect
Not too small
But not too big
And not too tall
But not too short
And not to loud
But not too quiet
And not too fake
But not too natural
And
WE JUST CANT LIVE UP TO THIS
And we are always around food but we are told never to eat it
No matter how much you want it, this world tells us you cant have it
Because you will get fat
And fat isn't beautiful.
I became weak
Sluggish and depressed like
I couldn’t keep up with my surroundings
I felt that everything was on a high way and I was walking along the side.
I can remember in my first night of this challenge
I awoke at five O'clock in the morning and started to cry when my hands first touched that gram cracker
And a took a bite and threw it at the wall
I was weak
And my emotions were storming in my head
I couldn’t take it
I needed sanity
food